i have some more contemptuous issues to discuss. This is one of the limited boy. I seem to have grown up in a community of "Limited Boys".

No, I'm serious.

All the guys in this community think that if you speak to them then you are interested in something more than friendship.
It is TOTALLY normal to speak so someone in the hopes of an interesting conversation.
please do NOT tell me that everyone has reverted back to a pre-evolved state where any sort of attention is only meant to lead to copulation in order to spread one's seed.

I THINK not.

for all the education in my community, where is revolutionised human? where are the people who further ideas, who can look at a person and see more than the physicality? ISN'T THIS THE WORLD'S AIM? that we shouldn't be burdened by it? And i am not saying it is easy, because goddamn it's going against the grain. But that's the point. Equality, acceptance and tolerance are IDEAS that we created and we bloody have to WORK FOR THEM.
So my point is, if I approach a female who i don't know (and i have done this many a time), they will be quite happy to chat. They Will be flattered and they will immediately know that it's just a genuine niceness. (i cant think of better Vocab).

Now if i approach a male it's a TOTALLY different story - firstly they will think that i am strange because i am approaching people i don't know. Then they will assume i am trying to pick them up or something or at least showing interest in their PHYSICALITY. which may or may not be true but it's not the REASON i approach people - it's probably something that happens BECAUSE i approach people (if at all - I'm v. fussy). Anyways, then if they somehow realise that i didn't approach them out of sexual interest, they will immediately become even MORE OBNOXIOUS. this is because boys in MY COMMUNITY ARE OBNOXIOUS MOTHERS BOYS WHO CANNOT THINK FOR THEMSELVES, NOR CAN THEY HOLD INTELLIGENT CONVERSATIONS.

so basically i am doomed by fault of my OWN PERSONALITY that people can't figure it out:

I'M JUST A NICE PERSON. there are no other pretenses, i swear.

So what is the final result of all this? I am stuck in a community of weak men. there are only two options

1. change.
2. wait in the hope for others to change.

WHERE are the normal people? i feel really insulated. I probably should never have travelled.. it's problematic - one can't close their mind once it is opened.

doomed, I tell you.

this is seriously the best outlet. I mean imagine yourself reading boring crap and trying to find some creativity? boom, then invented is a blog.
Do you guys know the history of blogs? Well i don't either but wikipedia was kind enough to help me out.. WikiGO!
It seems pretty accurate.. i cross referenced it with other sites.. this Justin Hall fellow seems to have created the first online 'journal' in 1994 .. not coined weblog until 1997..
Interesting isn't it - that we were alive for the invention of a creative outlet.. it's seems so bizarre...
What would I have done before this?